Excruciating Pain: A Personal Struggle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my one eye. It was followed by quick stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition typically begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that lasts for several hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like several causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around erratic pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest unusual remedies for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known people.

But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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